and i suddenly remember that feeling...

y'know the one. you're sitting inside on a cold and grey day. it's darkening outside because it's winter(ish). you're alone in your room trying to do work, but the sad/emotional songs keep coming on the shuffle (david gray), and the light in your room just isn't right. so you adjust, you snack, you search to talk to people online you haven't spoken with in months, and then you realize what it is.

loneliness.

what a strange feeling, because it's not readily apparent what it is. all you need is some hot chocolate, a good friend, and a rental. but you can't have that because you're in paris. which is amazing...but not for now. because now, no one's online due to some construct called thanksgiving which is bringing together families around lots of food for some obscure reason that has something to do with the american dream and with the immigrants in your family.

oh well. my thanksgiving dinner will be tomorrow with friends, wine, and a turkey i can't eat. god bless framerica.